i had a revelation this weekend

i have strong relationships

and i’m well-versed in candor and empathy,

but i’m constantly walking around afraid.

and for a while i thought i was afraid of losing those relationships

but i realized

i’m afraid of losing

myself.

isn’t that ironic?

i’m so well acquainted with myself

or so i thought

i mean i’m in my mind 24/7

i shouldn’t be lonely

but i clearly need to work on things

or i wouldn’t have this much anxiety.

and that’s the most egocentric thing i’ve ever said.