i had a revelation this weekend
i have strong relationships
and i’m well-versed in candor and empathy,
but i’m constantly walking around afraid.
and for a while i thought i was afraid of losing those relationships
but i realized
i’m afraid of losing
myself.
isn’t that ironic?
i’m so well acquainted with myself
or so i thought
i mean i’m in my mind 24/7
i shouldn’t be lonely
but i clearly need to work on things
or i wouldn’t have this much anxiety.
and that’s the most egocentric thing i’ve ever said.